Started thinking again about the cognitive dissonance regarding the things that happened regarding a particular family member over the past couple of years.
Though it can be said that the immense pain has largely gone, the problem is that the situation had not improved at all, which leaves us with that the expectations had changed greatly.
It could have been that deep down I no longer view that person as family, or even someone I know. The obligatory meetings and fulfillment of duties had become nothing more than just going through the motion of things, simply because they don’t mean anything anymore.
I think a part of me died over this two years, and it’s showing in certain other way(s). Don’t think this is good…